Age
Why do you matter so much .. why can u seperate people in a matter of seconds …. You fucked everything up … Over 3 stupid years .. hes gone in a instant because of age … After 6 long months … Kisses and hugs … gone .. now I’m left with nuthing … Memories and that’s all. Its all over and I have nuthing to show for it .
Your suppose to be my dad .. you not suppose to get in my face, call me a bitch, say I’m ugly, yell for no reason. That’s why i hate you and why we will never get along.
Liquor store blues
I’m not saying im in love… I’m not saying I’m sprung .. its just in the life I live I had nuthing but smiles when I talked to you or about you. You were my happens in my depression .. now that your gone .. I’m lost .. I wish I never went to the store that Tuesday… Or texted you all those times … I wish I never talked on the phone with you .. or invited you over… Or kissed you … I hate seeing you. .. seeing you makes me want you .. I want you .. I want to be able to share my life with you .. I want to hug you in public and run up to you and make everything right .. your the only one that makes me feel like this .. even tho were not togeather I don’t do things that would make you mad .. I just want you to want me for once. … You told me I’m the one you want but yet you change your mind in one day .. everyone doubted you … I told them they were wrong. You proved them write, I wish you weren’t so difficult. I wish i get out of bed and continue my day like normal .. I wish you would randomally show up at my house like you said you were .. I wish you kept your word .. I want you to love me. I wanna be perfect in your eyes. But now .. I’m here ……. Trying my hardest to hold back my tears .. not getting out of bed .. forcing myself to forget you .. keeping your name out of my mouth .. not hungery .. not wanting to do anything .. no smile …. No emotion. I just wish you knew how I felt … Turning my phone off for a while, deactivated my facebook .. loosing my car keys .. calling into work .. hoping you notice or change. Oh how I love you and you dont even kno .. I’m so confused and i feel like noone understands me.
